alhamdulillah, got a day off today. woke up late this morning. although my body will automatically wake up at 5a.m, got extra snooze time today Zzzzz. haha
I’m still a baby. Neonate to be exact. 3 days of life as a junior doctor.. currently surviving in NICU due to my ‘rusty’ brain- Get ventilation support; Airvo 8L (2L/kg) Fi02 25% for my ‘hypoxic’ brain and emm 2/3 fluid maintenance 1/2 NSD5% (12.5L/h) for my depleted medical knowledge. haha. Had waited for 8 months in a womb, I know this world is much more beautiful and I shouldn't love my comfort zone.
I don't give a damn to those who scolded me, some people may not get enough kindness that they forgot to spread only kindness in this world. let them be, I shouldn't be affected by their actions. I will forever be committed to learning. But of course, I will always appreciate people who taught me with kindness and patience.
sometimes it makes me miss Ireland even more. oh God, most of them are nice (although some of them just ergghh). I will never forget 1 consultant who walked to the end of a corridor to take an extra chair for me so that I can sit with all team members during a discussion. He invited me for morning coffee after ward round and gave bits of advice what I need to learn for the next day. Another consultant will buy me a coffee during clinics. Another junior doctor will always make time to listen to my cases. and etc. Have I ever got scolded back then? of course.. but I can't really remember...
The best part about paediatric posting is you can play with your patient. The worst part is you must be detailed in your history taking and of course when taking care of them. They can get well very fast so do become ill very quickly. As for my first posting, it's quite challenging. Adaptation process from medical student to a junior doctor is not easy, but alhamdulillah, tagging life is bearable so far
I thank Allah for granted me with very supportive parents. Umi will prepare my bekal before I leave home as early as 6a.m. (walaupun kadang tak sempat makan huhu) and when I come back home (1030 p.m the earliest), dinner is ready. kadang masih panas T_____T how can I not be grateful? of course lah aku makan macam orang kebuluq. hehe
I want to count my blessings as often as possible so that I would become very enthusiastic about transforming my struggles into blessings instead of complaining or crying about them. This too, shall pass Huda, InsyaAllah.
Till then :*